Patience

I like to Remind myself something ever so often:

When the bright light at the end of the tunnel starts to look fuzzy and distant, its time to blindfold yourself and enjoy the space that surrounds. For it is not important to reach the light but to engage in the experience of illuminating ones own mind.

Wikipedia: A free content, multilingual encyclopedia written collaboratively by contributors around the world.
Defines Patience,

As the ability to endure waiting, delay, or provocation without becoming annoyed or upset, or to persevere calmly when faced with difficulties.

So what is different and what is similar between our versions?

Mine is an optimistic appraisal or rather an enactment of my defense mechanism's version of 'My life is perfect and can only get better'.
Wiki defines it subjectively and in doing so asks us to look upon it as a virtue. To master it to a degree and thus surrender to its power.

And So,

When destiny takes it course and forces us to compromise, it is then when I look upon you with utmost respect and fondness.
Stay with me.. after all…

All you need is just a little Patience -GnR

Don't Hate Me Because I'm Beautiful

Its a lazy sunday evening and ive been reflecting about my life all day, its highs and lows, counting mostly its lows. Its just one of those days where I want to wallow and indulge in self pity two things I despise the most and funnily find my self doing every once in a while.

But this was the least of my problem till I started watching this reality show after which I broke down into tears. Why I got so wound up about this show was odd even for me, sometimes I think its because I'm very sensitive and care a tad bit too much. Even while writing this I sense my own naivety.
Anyhow coming back to the show, there was this girl who was being bullied by two other good looking girls based on how man-ly she was. Considering this wasn’t even a beauty pageant but infact a show based on levels of physical and metal strength. I was shocked

Today images of female beauty seem to influence everyone, the gap between cultural ideals of beauty and the actual physical appearance of women in our society is reaching new heights, Infact more and more women today are dissatisfied with the way they look. But then there are some who aren’t and those are the ones who are being subjected to this mental torture.
Like this girl who dint really care about the way she looked, dressed or acted. But was made to feel like crap just because she wasn’t good looking. However strong she might be as a person this affected her and I know it, because the next episode she was dressed in a skirt, she ironed her hair, she choose to be this other person just because she wanted to fit in on some unconscious level.
It’s terrifying. It really is...thinking back of my own school days, I shudder..Ive gone through it as well..I understood her pain. Maybe that’s why I was leaking like a tap.
For 2 years I was the fat girl.... How this changed my life I can never explain.
I always wondered then- why was it that even though I was a great human being people never appreciated me. I would ask myself how can people be so insensitive. But time changed so much.. I lost that weight turned into the so-called swan. Got the attention I deserved but by then nothing mattered...what changed me was my experience. What changed me was my own strength and ability to fight. What changed me was I.
Someday I want to go back and fight for all these girls who feel the same way. I want to tell them it’s not their fault. It will get better and you will win. You’re pretty inside and out. I want to meet these bullies; I want them to realize that their insecurities are not a good enough excuse to hurt other people. I want the world to be responsible and to care.

I also want people to realize something about this girl. This girl who you think is unconventional looking is an amazing person. Ask this girl and see if she cares what you think of yourself. She'll look past everything and say your soul is beautiful and that’s what matters. It was her that kissed the frog and turned him into a prince. How can you call her ugly? When her vision is so pure and pretty.